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ok....I am finally back to blogging...i jus realised that blogging is not about writing these long philosophies to please the reader, but its more like venting out what you feel and wat are you gonna do abt it.....and this all bcz one sweet little girl starts her blog and simply writes what she feels....i was moved by it...and here I am doing one of the things I love with a different attitude altogether....

Expecting the Unexpected!!!

LIBA's two day national symposium "INSIGHT'09" was one of the most amazing conferences I have ever been to....i suppose it was awesome because of the efforts that went into in making it BIG!...the struggle to get media partners for a conference that technically had no media partners in the last 3 years, since its inception, was tremendous...I gave it my best shot, although there were times I felt that I probably needed to be more efficient...And we got a gr8 response this year...5 media partners!
I am a person who has always loved appreciation for the deeds I do, but i have never expected to be appreciated...I knw that sounds pretty paradoxical, but its not!...
I guess I am this way coz of my dad. He never appreciated anything I ever did, infact would criticize almost everything I ever did, even though I was admired by the rest of the world. I have always been this above average guy for every1 around me, including my mom,...but not for my dad, period! :) :) :) :) :)
So this time when one of my prof. was thanking every1 for the efforts put in for the conference I didnt expect any appreciation.My name was barely heard the first time he said it. He moved on to the next name as though my name was there on that sheet of paper just for the sake of being there,like the many others who joined the Insight team for the heck of it & absolutely didnt work for it...
So there I was,in the last row(coz I was finalizing some stuff and reached right at the end) , feeling some what miserable but not showing it.....But there was someone who knew exactly what was going on inside my head. & belive me I could be quite the poker face when I want to be. And there was noway this person could've found out that I was troubled by this situation from my expressions...This person went on wit the aspect that it was so unfair that I didnt receive the appreciation that I deserved...I guess thats how true friends are, they stand up for you when the whole world thinks you dont exist anymore!...
After a while, this same prof. asked the prominent people who made this conference a huge success to come up on the dice and say a few words to an audience that easily exceeded 400 delegates. And as the members of the core team were being called one by one and said what they had to say, I was sinking deeper although this friend was constantly not letting me cripple down...
..and then it happened, THE UNEXPECTED!...this prof. simply called out my name to say a few words...& for a minute I couldnt believe what was happening,bcoz all the students who previously went up there too share their experience were all seniors and in the core Insight team, and I was not!...It came as a shock, and the walk to the podium from the last row was much more difficult than it looked!...my hands were trembling, perhaps still recovering from the initial setback...and when I was up there it felt gr8!!
I will never forget this friend of mine who stood by me when I was down!
Cheers to true Friendship! :)

Emotions Unbound....

Have you ever wondered why has it been so difficult for us to have a friend who will always stand by us no matter what??....well the answer is pretty simple...coz there are not many people who would do something like that for us.
As much shocking as it might sound, there maybe just about 5 people in your entire tenure of your life that will exhibit such a rare emotion towards you!...if you manage to cling onto just 2 of such friends for your entire life, you would have achieved a lot.
You might wonder now,...and would have this thought in your mind which you would want to believe to be true...you would say to yourself...'I have a zillion friends who I meet every single day and who would do absolutely anything for me if I asked them to..' Well, that is where you have an absolutely wrong perception about most of these friends. The thing is, there could be 2 reason for this fractured perception that you have:
1.You sincerely believe that they are your true friends! (Which is highly unlikely, as deep down within you know that they simply aren't).
2.You have created this perception about your friends that they simply cannot deceive you...although you know it is very much possible. Its like a railway track, although you know that the 2 rails of the track will never meet...you still seem to see it that they will!
Have you ever felt that sometimes your so called friends just are friends with you coz they want somethin out of you eventually?...well, thats what it really is...
see...the thing is, all of us are instinctively competent, and it is obvious that most of the people who we think are our friends, are actually not!...they are there with you until you have satisfied their purpose, or coz they feel u would be useful to them in the near future...
I know its heartbreaking to realize something like this, but its better to realize it now & act accordingly by being cautious about such people rather than being hurt by the very same people you thought were your friends.
Nevertheless, as i mentioned earlier, there will always be someone in your life who would truly be your friend...If you have recognized this person,there is nothing more worthwhile than knowing who your TRUE FRIEND is... :)

ღ Distance That Makes a Heart Grow Fonder ღ

It's 6:45 a.m. My alarm isn't scheduled to go off for another 15 minutes, but my phone is buzzing on my nightstand. Grudgingly, I get out of bed and look down at my cell. "One new message," it says. So I pick it up and read my text:"Good morning! I hope you have a wonderful day! Don't worry about your exams, you're gonna be great! I miss you =) "I smile, and those 15 minutes of sleep I lost are now the last thing on my mind. They say that long-distance relationships don't last. They say it's hardest when one person is away at college. They even put bets on how long a couple will stay together after the two are forced to be apart.Yes, long-distance relationships are hard, but I'm learning that when you have something worth fighting for every struggle is worth it. My love and I had met 6years before we actually expressed our feelings for each other. I remember the day we met like it was yesterday. That first look,that awesome smile and then talking about everything and nothing at the same time & the way she made me laugh. For six years, I lived in a fairy tale. It seemed like she and I were together since a previous lifetime. We wasted away the days that we could have been together.
My acceptance letter arrived; not long after that I was shadowed by this wave of uncertainity. This wave seemed to get a hold of me & my emotions went haywire. And it all seemed like its Now or Never. Emotions are one of the most amazing gifts of the almighty. When they get a hold of you,you somehow begin to think straight. some of the biggest and the most bold decisions we take are mostly initiated by the emotions within us. So it seemed that I should tell her. But the fear of loosing her was too much to overcome. And then it happened!!..an event that brought me to a point that compelled me to think that I would never get a second chance. And in the most absurd way possible,I expressed that she meant a lot to me. The rest is just a great love story in the making.
And the days of summer seemed to get shorter and shorter as June 8th drew near. But we somehow began to realise that although there were miles that seperated us, we felt the presence of each other like we were there sitting next to each other holding hands. Its an amazing feeling I tell you. We always wondered if the distance between us would be an issue to handle. I must say it is hard, and we have a long way to go. But we are confident that there will be nothing that will ever separate us & the distance would indeed make our hearts grow fonder. <3 <3

♥♥The Little Things That Matter The Most♥♥

I have always been this person who has always wanted to make it big in whatever that I got myself into. Although I have never wanted to be in the spotlight simply because I hate the attention I usually get. However there was always this urge in me, that if I do something it should be grand and huge so that it is acknowledged in that very way by the rest of the world.The small little things that came my way really didn't make a big deal.
We all have dreams and aspirations, that are most often been an absolute part of our life and these dreams are the one's that motivate us to move on and turn them to reality. But in many cases in our lives we do not achieve success in the most desired way, that we thought, was without doubt possible. When these dreams are not met. We tend to lose faith and give up. Our attitude has always been to reach that destination,that final goal; and somehow in the process we don't really enjoy the journey before reaching that destination. We do not realize the small instances and experiences on this path of ours that have truly made us grow as individuals and thought us living our lives as we know it. But we are too busy concentrating on those huge dreams that we loose sight of the little joys and pleasures life throws at us all along our way.

I often wonder, how is it that people neglect these little experiences, especially because these little things that happen to us, matter the most. I have always faced this huge dilemma of how to express myself by being as sophistical as possible so that the person i am expressing my ideas or feelings to, will not just clearly understand what I am trying to say, but also be impressed by the way I am expressing myself. However now i have come to realize, that sometimes saying the simplest of words in the most truthful way right from your heart means a lot and would weigh a thousand fold more then that I would normally do.

We need to sit back and ponder for a while and think about the situations that we come across in our lives. If we decide to overate these situations by probably thinking that it is best left unperturbed, it would eventually complicate things and thus would make things much more difficult to handle. One needs to understand that when we give importance to these little joys, we eventually tend to be much more happy and enjoy our life with these little spurts of joy.

By simply understanding what another person you care for is going through, you create this amazing incomparable bond of respect,trust and love that frankly speaking matters the most. Because someday when all the other unimportant desires have run out, it would be these emotions that would keep us together and more importantly provide us with a reason to live on.

So even if we miss out on life's big prizes, we are still eligible for the little things that really matter. I call them life's small pleasures that make big differences. It could be a simple pat on the back, or maybe a hug from a best friend, a full moon, a glorious sunset, a chat with one we like a lot, a delicious meal, a whole hearted laugh, an ice cream, a shower in the rain, a silent night on the terrace, a slow walk on an empty road with he person we love the most....(*blush*)
So don't worry about missing out life's grand rewards, enjoy its tiny delights....because they the ones that matter the most.......... :)