Expecting the Unexpected!!!

LIBA's two day national symposium "INSIGHT'09" was one of the most amazing conferences I have ever been to....i suppose it was awesome because of the efforts that went into in making it BIG!...the struggle to get media partners for a conference that technically had no media partners in the last 3 years, since its inception, was tremendous...I gave it my best shot, although there were times I felt that I probably needed to be more efficient...And we got a gr8 response this year...5 media partners!
I am a person who has always loved appreciation for the deeds I do, but i have never expected to be appreciated...I knw that sounds pretty paradoxical, but its not!...
I guess I am this way coz of my dad. He never appreciated anything I ever did, infact would criticize almost everything I ever did, even though I was admired by the rest of the world. I have always been this above average guy for every1 around me, including my mom,...but not for my dad, period! :) :) :) :) :)
So this time when one of my prof. was thanking every1 for the efforts put in for the conference I didnt expect any appreciation.My name was barely heard the first time he said it. He moved on to the next name as though my name was there on that sheet of paper just for the sake of being there,like the many others who joined the Insight team for the heck of it & absolutely didnt work for it...
So there I was,in the last row(coz I was finalizing some stuff and reached right at the end) , feeling some what miserable but not showing it.....But there was someone who knew exactly what was going on inside my head. & belive me I could be quite the poker face when I want to be. And there was noway this person could've found out that I was troubled by this situation from my expressions...This person went on wit the aspect that it was so unfair that I didnt receive the appreciation that I deserved...I guess thats how true friends are, they stand up for you when the whole world thinks you dont exist anymore!...
After a while, this same prof. asked the prominent people who made this conference a huge success to come up on the dice and say a few words to an audience that easily exceeded 400 delegates. And as the members of the core team were being called one by one and said what they had to say, I was sinking deeper although this friend was constantly not letting me cripple down...
..and then it happened, THE UNEXPECTED!...this prof. simply called out my name to say a few words...& for a minute I couldnt believe what was happening,bcoz all the students who previously went up there too share their experience were all seniors and in the core Insight team, and I was not!...It came as a shock, and the walk to the podium from the last row was much more difficult than it looked!...my hands were trembling, perhaps still recovering from the initial setback...and when I was up there it felt gr8!!
I will never forget this friend of mine who stood by me when I was down!
Cheers to true Friendship! :)

Emotions Unbound....

Have you ever wondered why has it been so difficult for us to have a friend who will always stand by us no matter what??....well the answer is pretty simple...coz there are not many people who would do something like that for us.
As much shocking as it might sound, there maybe just about 5 people in your entire tenure of your life that will exhibit such a rare emotion towards you!...if you manage to cling onto just 2 of such friends for your entire life, you would have achieved a lot.
You might wonder now,...and would have this thought in your mind which you would want to believe to be true...you would say to yourself...'I have a zillion friends who I meet every single day and who would do absolutely anything for me if I asked them to..' Well, that is where you have an absolutely wrong perception about most of these friends. The thing is, there could be 2 reason for this fractured perception that you have:
1.You sincerely believe that they are your true friends! (Which is highly unlikely, as deep down within you know that they simply aren't).
2.You have created this perception about your friends that they simply cannot deceive you...although you know it is very much possible. Its like a railway track, although you know that the 2 rails of the track will never meet...you still seem to see it that they will!
Have you ever felt that sometimes your so called friends just are friends with you coz they want somethin out of you eventually?...well, thats what it really is...
see...the thing is, all of us are instinctively competent, and it is obvious that most of the people who we think are our friends, are actually not!...they are there with you until you have satisfied their purpose, or coz they feel u would be useful to them in the near future...
I know its heartbreaking to realize something like this, but its better to realize it now & act accordingly by being cautious about such people rather than being hurt by the very same people you thought were your friends.
Nevertheless, as i mentioned earlier, there will always be someone in your life who would truly be your friend...If you have recognized this person,there is nothing more worthwhile than knowing who your TRUE FRIEND is... :)

ღ Distance That Makes a Heart Grow Fonder ღ

It's 6:45 a.m. My alarm isn't scheduled to go off for another 15 minutes, but my phone is buzzing on my nightstand. Grudgingly, I get out of bed and look down at my cell. "One new message," it says. So I pick it up and read my text:"Good morning! I hope you have a wonderful day! Don't worry about your exams, you're gonna be great! I miss you =) "I smile, and those 15 minutes of sleep I lost are now the last thing on my mind. They say that long-distance relationships don't last. They say it's hardest when one person is away at college. They even put bets on how long a couple will stay together after the two are forced to be apart.Yes, long-distance relationships are hard, but I'm learning that when you have something worth fighting for every struggle is worth it. My love and I had met 6years before we actually expressed our feelings for each other. I remember the day we met like it was yesterday. That first look,that awesome smile and then talking about everything and nothing at the same time & the way she made me laugh. For six years, I lived in a fairy tale. It seemed like she and I were together since a previous lifetime. We wasted away the days that we could have been together.
My acceptance letter arrived; not long after that I was shadowed by this wave of uncertainity. This wave seemed to get a hold of me & my emotions went haywire. And it all seemed like its Now or Never. Emotions are one of the most amazing gifts of the almighty. When they get a hold of you,you somehow begin to think straight. some of the biggest and the most bold decisions we take are mostly initiated by the emotions within us. So it seemed that I should tell her. But the fear of loosing her was too much to overcome. And then it happened!!..an event that brought me to a point that compelled me to think that I would never get a second chance. And in the most absurd way possible,I expressed that she meant a lot to me. The rest is just a great love story in the making.
And the days of summer seemed to get shorter and shorter as June 8th drew near. But we somehow began to realise that although there were miles that seperated us, we felt the presence of each other like we were there sitting next to each other holding hands. Its an amazing feeling I tell you. We always wondered if the distance between us would be an issue to handle. I must say it is hard, and we have a long way to go. But we are confident that there will be nothing that will ever separate us & the distance would indeed make our hearts grow fonder. <3 <3

♥♥The Little Things That Matter The Most♥♥

I have always been this person who has always wanted to make it big in whatever that I got myself into. Although I have never wanted to be in the spotlight simply because I hate the attention I usually get. However there was always this urge in me, that if I do something it should be grand and huge so that it is acknowledged in that very way by the rest of the world.The small little things that came my way really didn't make a big deal.
We all have dreams and aspirations, that are most often been an absolute part of our life and these dreams are the one's that motivate us to move on and turn them to reality. But in many cases in our lives we do not achieve success in the most desired way, that we thought, was without doubt possible. When these dreams are not met. We tend to lose faith and give up. Our attitude has always been to reach that destination,that final goal; and somehow in the process we don't really enjoy the journey before reaching that destination. We do not realize the small instances and experiences on this path of ours that have truly made us grow as individuals and thought us living our lives as we know it. But we are too busy concentrating on those huge dreams that we loose sight of the little joys and pleasures life throws at us all along our way.

I often wonder, how is it that people neglect these little experiences, especially because these little things that happen to us, matter the most. I have always faced this huge dilemma of how to express myself by being as sophistical as possible so that the person i am expressing my ideas or feelings to, will not just clearly understand what I am trying to say, but also be impressed by the way I am expressing myself. However now i have come to realize, that sometimes saying the simplest of words in the most truthful way right from your heart means a lot and would weigh a thousand fold more then that I would normally do.

We need to sit back and ponder for a while and think about the situations that we come across in our lives. If we decide to overate these situations by probably thinking that it is best left unperturbed, it would eventually complicate things and thus would make things much more difficult to handle. One needs to understand that when we give importance to these little joys, we eventually tend to be much more happy and enjoy our life with these little spurts of joy.

By simply understanding what another person you care for is going through, you create this amazing incomparable bond of respect,trust and love that frankly speaking matters the most. Because someday when all the other unimportant desires have run out, it would be these emotions that would keep us together and more importantly provide us with a reason to live on.

So even if we miss out on life's big prizes, we are still eligible for the little things that really matter. I call them life's small pleasures that make big differences. It could be a simple pat on the back, or maybe a hug from a best friend, a full moon, a glorious sunset, a chat with one we like a lot, a delicious meal, a whole hearted laugh, an ice cream, a shower in the rain, a silent night on the terrace, a slow walk on an empty road with he person we love the most....(*blush*)
So don't worry about missing out life's grand rewards, enjoy its tiny delights....because they the ones that matter the most.......... :)

乂°Plannings & Expectations°乂

As I woke up this morning, I had my fingers crossed...this is something I do when I want my day to go on, the way I have planned it to be.Before I got off my bed, I joined my hands and asked the Lord to grant me my perfect day. With hope and faith on my side,I rose like a bird that had no tensions and no worries with a broad smile on my face. This is pretty unlikely in my case as I normally wake up with a 'why do we have to wake up' attitude....But today was different, it was so for many reasons. There are rarely these certain days in our lives that we value and would not want to replace or trade them for absolutely anything else. This was one such day of my life. I had planned vigorously and anticipated it to turn out that way.But by noon it turned out that the prayers that I had said in the morning had probably not reached the almighty or maybe it was my turn to face the obvious despair God often showers upon us to keep His generosity in check, given the fact that He had been exuberantly generous to me over the last few weeks.Undoubtedly I am grateful to that, however I had this fierce fury within me which was pretty gentle, I must admit, that was asking the most obvious question (which I believe all of us have asked the Lord at some point of time in our lives)...."why does this always happen to me??"...
This is a feeling we experience when something we have deeply and meticulously planned does not go as per plan. Now, I would ask....What is a plan exactly?...Is it a virtual simulation our human brain creates so that we have an idea of how are things gonna go down?...Is it an idea that makes us feel secure of the near future so that we don't mess up a situation? or is it this dreamworld that we create in our proper senses so that a miracle can happen and that dream could turn into the reality we perceive??..Everyone would have a different interpretation & purpose of the plans we make...
We fail to understand one huge law of the universe though, and that being...The future is never in our hands. We may try to mould a future for ourselves by making these constant efforts. But at the end of the day, what has to happen will happen. Some of us may term this as destiny and others may say its fate. I have a more spiritual interpretation to this.
We often ask God for things that we don't deserve of maybe cannot handle at that point of time. It simply is beyond human reason. But what is important is the idea, which is; God has a plan for each one of us, we are like these characters in a play. We play our roles and make a difference in each of the other characters life. But one might wonder....if this is a play then don't we have decisions to make?? Is God playing with us like puppets? Well this could be very disturbing at times, but it is not the way it seems. Consider our lives to be a really magnificent play with the characters creating a script of their own as they go along the way. Isn't that beautiful!!,especially because the creator of this play even though being so powerful, yet gifts us with this amazing gift of 'Free Will'...Which is extremely generous at the same time humble of Him to do so.

But if that is so, it again brings us back to square one. If we can decide which path to choose to create an outcome, how don't our plans go according to plan?? This is because we have expectations. We simply make decisions and expect the outcome the way we want it to be. It would be a huge understatement if I said that not planning is the best way out. But infact it is!!...If we don't plan a particular outcome, we would be compelled to act spontaneously and not have time to expect a particular result out of it. But that definitely does not mean that one shouldn't plan. Because a failure to plan is a plan for failure in itself.

The ideal way would rather be to strike a balance.Plan the outline of the expected outcome but do not have too many expectation. Its like being in Love, we know that we would eventually do anything for the person we adore and give our heart to, however would never expect the person we love to love us back. If it happens we would be more than glad. But if it doesn't we would atleast not be heart broken and disappointed.

●๋••Running out of words••●๋•

I really don't know how to go about with this post when the title itself is so uninspiring. Anyways, as I was chatting with a very close friend of mine today,I realized that very often we run out of words as to what we have to say.The words that we know are often not enough or rather incapable of expressing what we truly feel about a particular situation or person. But we don't stop and pause, we want to carry on with the conversation, so we in turn tend to use words that are not really appropriate or do justice to what we really mean. And it is often so that these words may be misinterpreted by the listener. Interestingly most of our conversations that take place are between us and the people whom we really care about. And if these misunderstandings are created in them they could have very devastating consequences. However all of us are aware about this, and hence tend to be very cautious with what we say to our loved ones.

Being cautious with a loved one!!...This actually is a very ironical situation. We don't want to create a misunderstanding, and hence would rather be cautious and keep things to ourselves. But when we look at the big picture here, we realize that withholding emotions and expressions from the most important people of our lives is so very unfair. Why should a relationship suffer simply because we as imperfect individuals & cannot figure out a better way to express ourselves in the true sense of it.
Take Love for example; If a men wants to express his love for a women, the most conventional and sort out way would be simply to say those 3 magical words, "I Love You"...But if we truly look around in our world today, these words have distinctly lost their true meaning...Every one would be using them to lure anyone who cud possibly be just a mere attraction or an object of infatuation & admiration.It is become such a commercial form of expression that i must admit that most of us would not know the true meaning or feeling it allows us to experience. So when someone is truly in Love, he would not find using this phrase; which is of utmost value,affection and respect, preferential.
So what do we do when faced with a predicament of running out or words that would truly express what we feel? Here I must succumb to defeat and say that, I do not have an answer to that. Because even if we know each and every word of the English vocabulary or even the vocabulary of any other language for that matter, we would never ever be able to express in words what we truly feel. Its simply because our speech and language is bound by so many constraints that our extremely sophisticated yet perfect human mind can never be able to synchronize with. We should be glad and appreciate that our mind is created with so much freedom that we can think whatever,however and whenever we want. That is the freedom nobody can take away from us. Which according to me is extremely beautiful.
So i guess the bottom line is, if we want to express what we feel and have run out of words to do so, we simply use the words that are accessible to us at that moment of time rather than being cautions and keeping things to ourselves. We can hope and have the faith that our loved ones have known us well by now that they would perfectly understand what we are expressing and not what we have just said to them in words. So if you have something to say....go ahead and say it, do not hesitate because life does not give you many opportunities to express what you truly feel.
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Share if you can't Bear--→ılılılı

Sometimes we sit & wonder....why do bad things happen to us??....and on one such really bad day,I took off to the jetty and needed to find answers to several of the questions life had thrown at me. I sat by the jetty and felt the humid breeze blow over my face that had apparently lost its expressions for a while. If only there was something I could do about it. And no matter how much I tried I couldn't get that smile on my face because I was too busy thinking how to fake it.

This is what most of us would've experienced some time or another in our lives. We come across a situation we cant really deal with & refuse to admit it. We hamper ourselves from taking a deep breath and starting over....
We make unjustified assumptions that nothing can turn out right anymore....and we don't even consider the alternative of discussing this situation with someone that would listen...But doing this has its pros and cons. When we discuss our lives and make it this open book to read from, we tend to think that we have become vulnerable to the other person, and this very thought can work against us....But if there is worthwhile trust, miracles can happen....
This sharing is very important as we get a whole new perspective to our problems and the solution at large because we would never have been able to look at it from the angle the person we are discussing it with is looking right now. And this perspective may not be the most optimum one, but it definitely would trigger a stimulus within us to think and act differently.
So the next time you have a problem, dont just bank on yourself....there's always a person that might just understand you more than yourself.....cheers!!!