乂°Plannings & Expectations°乂

As I woke up this morning, I had my fingers crossed...this is something I do when I want my day to go on, the way I have planned it to be.Before I got off my bed, I joined my hands and asked the Lord to grant me my perfect day. With hope and faith on my side,I rose like a bird that had no tensions and no worries with a broad smile on my face. This is pretty unlikely in my case as I normally wake up with a 'why do we have to wake up' attitude....But today was different, it was so for many reasons. There are rarely these certain days in our lives that we value and would not want to replace or trade them for absolutely anything else. This was one such day of my life. I had planned vigorously and anticipated it to turn out that way.But by noon it turned out that the prayers that I had said in the morning had probably not reached the almighty or maybe it was my turn to face the obvious despair God often showers upon us to keep His generosity in check, given the fact that He had been exuberantly generous to me over the last few weeks.Undoubtedly I am grateful to that, however I had this fierce fury within me which was pretty gentle, I must admit, that was asking the most obvious question (which I believe all of us have asked the Lord at some point of time in our lives)...."why does this always happen to me??"...
This is a feeling we experience when something we have deeply and meticulously planned does not go as per plan. Now, I would ask....What is a plan exactly?...Is it a virtual simulation our human brain creates so that we have an idea of how are things gonna go down?...Is it an idea that makes us feel secure of the near future so that we don't mess up a situation? or is it this dreamworld that we create in our proper senses so that a miracle can happen and that dream could turn into the reality we perceive??..Everyone would have a different interpretation & purpose of the plans we make...
We fail to understand one huge law of the universe though, and that being...The future is never in our hands. We may try to mould a future for ourselves by making these constant efforts. But at the end of the day, what has to happen will happen. Some of us may term this as destiny and others may say its fate. I have a more spiritual interpretation to this.
We often ask God for things that we don't deserve of maybe cannot handle at that point of time. It simply is beyond human reason. But what is important is the idea, which is; God has a plan for each one of us, we are like these characters in a play. We play our roles and make a difference in each of the other characters life. But one might wonder....if this is a play then don't we have decisions to make?? Is God playing with us like puppets? Well this could be very disturbing at times, but it is not the way it seems. Consider our lives to be a really magnificent play with the characters creating a script of their own as they go along the way. Isn't that beautiful!!,especially because the creator of this play even though being so powerful, yet gifts us with this amazing gift of 'Free Will'...Which is extremely generous at the same time humble of Him to do so.

But if that is so, it again brings us back to square one. If we can decide which path to choose to create an outcome, how don't our plans go according to plan?? This is because we have expectations. We simply make decisions and expect the outcome the way we want it to be. It would be a huge understatement if I said that not planning is the best way out. But infact it is!!...If we don't plan a particular outcome, we would be compelled to act spontaneously and not have time to expect a particular result out of it. But that definitely does not mean that one shouldn't plan. Because a failure to plan is a plan for failure in itself.

The ideal way would rather be to strike a balance.Plan the outline of the expected outcome but do not have too many expectation. Its like being in Love, we know that we would eventually do anything for the person we adore and give our heart to, however would never expect the person we love to love us back. If it happens we would be more than glad. But if it doesn't we would atleast not be heart broken and disappointed.